Book of Mormon challenge

I feel like the brat daughter that thinks she deserves everything when it comes to the gospel.
Born and raised in this religion, I have lived my life living off of everyone elses testimonies. Why bother to get one of my own? That's too much work. I have been too scared to question because I am afraid of the answers I might come up with. Answers that may contradict what the church believes to be true. I am fine with same sex marriage and partners. I have very close friends that fit into this "type" and love them to death. I don't see a difference. I see nothing wrong with other people having a drink once in a while. Everything in moderation. I even believe that marijuana should be legal, R movies should be a free choice, and I love having a Coke, or even a cup of coffee now and then. This is me, and I am not the cookie cutter mold of a mormon. I don't want to be a hypocrite and I want my friends in the church to love me for me, with no secrets. I have felt this off and on, but not to the extent of nearly leaving the church all together, until a few weeks ago. It was like a dark cloud of doubt that just moved in and remained for quite a while. I didn't feel an ounce of loyalty, which I hate to admit has kept me from ever considering departure. I can't even go into detail because as we speak, I have two boys arguing in the bedroom, one in rollerblades in the kitchen, another bouncing a ball in the livingroom and a toddler yelling "mommmmyyyyy mommmyyyy" over and over for no reason.
SO...until I get a moment...here is the gist. I snapped out of it. Seriously,.....just did. I'll talk about that more another time.
4 close friends of mine have been going through this with me these last few weeks and we have decided to read the book of mormon in one month. That is 15 pages a day. I have NEVER read the book from beginning to end. I have only read in progression to 2 Nephi and then jumped around as needed in classes, etc.
SO (2)....If you are interested in joining me....let me know. Seriously...today I made it to scripture 12 in the FIRST chapter before having to call my friend and ask "what book"?
Even if you are not LDS, I encourage you to read with me and ask questions. Don't have a book of mormon.....I'll get you one, or check out this website, www.lds.org. It has tons of info as well. I have many questions. This book won't make me change my mind about any of the above rebellious beliefs, but I am hoping that it will restore my faith in this gospel and renew/rebuild a "real" testimony this time that will be all my own.
-K